::I'm melancholy today. That's nothing new, but I wish I knew what all my triggers were, so I could at least prepare for the melancholy days. Otherwise, it sneaks up on me, and I have to work twice as hard to fight through it and still get out of bed. Bed is a great place to be.
::Terry and I were talking about the uncertainty of life. You know how it goes, one day, you wake up and every thing is good, and by the end of the night, your house burned down. Sometimes, it's not even that significant. Just that you wake up one way, and by the end of the day, your life can be turned upside down. Those kind of uncertainties really strike at me, a person that likes to have lots of control. The thing is, you can't really even think about it. I remember having a conversation with a friend several years ago, talking about sports injuries and what to do with the knowledge we had of how much our sons could be hurt participating in sports. We came to the conclusion that if you want them to participate, you have to do what you can to protect them (adequate equipment) but that ultimately, you just hope that they don't get permanently injured. I feel the same is true every day, when you send your kid out the door, to go do whatever it is they are going to do. Whether they are participating in sports, going to a friend's house, riding to the store, or playing on the playground, stuff happens. If you think about all the what if's, you will go crazy trying to prepare for every eventuality. And that's no fun. For anyone.
::Christina and I have been out running again. Man, have I missed a running buddy! Bad news is that it's been so hot that we are dying out there!! We are running at 7:00 am and it's already 80+ degrees. That is just too hot to run in for an old lady like me. But we are persevering. Someone start praying for cooler weather please. But not too cool. I still want to have a summer~
::Um, so I've been watching the Bachelorette, and people, I can't stand this girl or any of the guys at all. Anyone that was any kind of normal, she has booted so I'm thinking, what's left? Only crazy? No thanks. I just can't even imagine you tell one guy, you're the one, and then you go sleep with another guy, and then are still dating several others. Um, what?!? That's just weird, and obnoxious. And yet, I'm sucked in! Every week, when the show's over, I think, I'm not watching this next week! Done! And the next week, I'm sitting watching the Bachelorette. So bad.
::I'm slowly, but surely, getting through a few of the projects that I have sitting around. Today, I've been working on graduation gifts. I feel like I have clear until they actually go to college. That works, right? Right?!
::I've been trying to make Tessa do stuff instead of just sitting around all day. Just stuff like, do some reading, write in your journal, play some piano, do a little singing, stretch. Nothing to strenuous, or time consuming. But you would think that I've asked her to read a 400 page book every day, or write a 10 page essay. The complaining and whining has been enough to totally drive me crazy. Parenting is definitely a one step forward, two steps back process.
::Speaking of parenting, the older I get, the more I think, why did I ever worry about this with my older kids? You know what I mean.... I can remember sitting through all of Tyson's practices, not just his games, to make sure he was playing well. Ugh. I'm just embarrassed about it now. My advice to all young moms out there: Don't worry over the small things, just hit all the high spots and the rest will take care of itself. I promise. If you are hitting the key points of life (their relationship with God, and family), the rest of life will be included. So much wasted energy on stuff that just doesn't matter.
::My scrapbook retreat is coming up this month, and I'm so excited! I have a lot of little projects I'm going to take to work on, but mainly, I'm excited to visit with my scrapbook buddies, and watch all my Harry Potter movies. I'm thinking I may try to read a couple of the books again before my next Harry Potter marathon. I'm pretty excited about that.
::Can you believe it's July? Me either. Time is flying by.
::And now I have to go do some work.