I was feeling confident that my anxiety was taking a little hiatus, and so either my hiatus is over, or I was wishful thinking, because, baby, it's back!
I've been doing pretty good with my mental health and then last night, I had something happen that really hit me. I talked about it to my counselor (Terry) and thought that I had it settled in my mind but this morning, I had a full blown anxiety attack, complete with jitters, tears, labored breathing, and dizziness, all while walking. I know what your thinking, and I thought the same, She doesn't have anxiety attacks while she's walking (that is what you were thinking, right?), but apparently that was just a mirage as well. Thank goodness my walking partner is sick and so was not a witness to the blubbery mess that was me. I decided that I couldn't do this the whole walk and so called the problem of said anxiety, and discussed a course of action. Now if you think it is hard to walk while texting, I have to say that it is equally hard to walk, talk and try to do deep breathing at the same time. And since it was a brisk 24^ outside today, my tears were practically freezing the second they left my eyes, which means that I had tears frozen to my eyelashes. And since I only brought two kleenexes instead of my customary four, I was hard pressed to get them wiped off. I was a mess.
Well, I made it through my walk, and now am having anxiety about the fact that I had anxiety during a time which has normally been exempt from anxiety. How's that for a fine pickle?
And yes, I'm doing my deep breathing.
How nice to live with a counselor, :). I'm sorry your anxiety free place was invaded today. That is not nice, especially on such a cold day (I had no idea of the cold temps....brrrr). I'm glad you have the deep breathing going on and I'm hoping it's helping some too. Hugs.
Posted by: melanie | November 24, 2008 at 03:41 PM
I hope you feel peaceful soon. How nice to have a live-in counselor. Breath deeply!
Posted by: Lucy | November 25, 2008 at 07:09 PM