I'm really struggling to get back into the groove of blogging. Oh let's face it, I'm struggling to get into the groove of anything.
I try to read, I lose interest. I start to clean and I get distracted. I sit to watch tv and I fall asleep. I'm just stuck in a rut.
I think part of the problem is the weather. I know that winter is supposed to be cold and gray, but we are on the 40-something day of cloudy weather. The sun is no where to be seen. Even sitting under my big light is not helping me at all. I just don't know what to do to combat this. I so just want to curl up into a ball and stay under the covers.
I do want to say though, that I have been busy. Crazy busy. It's that time of year, the beginning of dance and drill competition. Actually, we have been to two different competitions already, but our very own competition is coming up in two weeks, and they are a big deal to put on. I've been working on that for a couple weeks now.
And doing a bit of sewing! Tessa's class is a monkey in the production number this year, and we needed some ears and tails. I got on to it on Tuesday, buying the fabric, and making a proto type. On Wednesday, I made up all the ears (10 pairs), and Thursday, I made 10 tails. It's quite a process but I think they turned out pretty cute! I would love to say I got a picture or two, but I didn't!! Not one picture. That's what happens when you are trying to be helpful. You forget all the fun stuff. I've got to get it together one of these days. Seriously.
We had a bunch of performances lately too. We had some firecrackers performances, some individual class performances, some drill performances, and some production performances. It's so fun to watch these performances and see the reaction from the crowd. These girls work so hard, as hard as anyone, and people tend to think what they do is so easy. It isn't easy to learn how to control your body to make all those incredible moves. It's incredibly hard. I'm so proud of all the girls and all their hard work.
I'm such a wimp. I haven't run since November. It's just so cold outside, and once I get chilled, I have such a hard time warming up. And I'm lazy. So lazy. What to do?
We had a Young Women's conference on Saturday. I had the honor of giving the closing testimony. I had been thinking about different things for a couple of days, such as the talk giving by Pres. Uchtdorf, "Of Regrets and Resolutions". I've been thinking a lot about the end of life, and what I want people to think of me, and how much my children know about me. I've been thinking a lot about my mother. I miss her. I find myself thinking, I need to post this video of Tess doing ----- for mom to see, and then I think, nope. I don't need to do that. I miss seeing and talking to my mom. Anyway. I was thinking about all that stuff, and I really felt like I needed to bear testimony to the last gift my mom gave me. Because she wasn't afraid to die, and was even looking forward to it, I knew that she had a true testimony of the Plan of Salvation. I knew that she had a true knowledge of where she was going, what she was doing, and who would be there. It was a last gift of her testimony of the gospel.
And so I shared that at the Young Women's conference. Unfortunately, I couldn't keep the emotions at bay, and I did the ugly cry. I thought I was past that, but no.
Well, it's time for bed. I'm hoping for some motivation to continue blogging.
Wish me luck!